As well as to be close
it destroys to be unwanted
As well as to be called
it feels like a sparkle
Pushing me to look forward
It hits like a flame
Of jealousy in my inner veins
It sounds like a knock
In my fragile heart doors
It smells like burning
A tree paper in the woods
It tastes like bitterness
In my sweet bitter tongue
It seems like an alert
Of a strong feeling of love
It pushes my stalking eyes
To keep looking for their prey
They find it…She refuses to stay away
But her legs are keeping her away
From getting up and slay
Instead, it feels like running away
And giving tears the right to draw their way
In the middle of a barren forest per say
It hurts to be close
As well as to be distant
It made me disappointed
Because of what I expected
But then it made me proud
Because of getting this out of my mind
Those mixed feelings confused my mind with a question
Do I really love you or I should call it an addiction?
You, who barely notice me
Stop turning your back and hurting me
Every note is hitting my heart like a knife
Unconsciously, pushing my eyes to stalk your moves
But your eyes who, consciously, ruined my life
Because of ignoring me and my tries
Just turn your back I will be there
Hoping that you will finally discover what’s there
Hoping that I will finally discover if I’m a lover or a prey
They push me toward you but it seems like an illusion
Because of taking my daily dose of addiction
Turn your back and answer my question
Just tell me, Is this love or addiction??
Let me tell you I’m addicted to your love in slow motion
I have built high hopes but low expectations,
Created million scenarios but just in my imagination,
This made me drawn in hundred meditations
Hoping that one of them will turn my dreams into actions
