I gaslight myself into not liking someone
As I am scared, they won’t feel the same
And as they gain interest mine fades away
A broken heart is never what I look for
But what a world of broken people we live for
I let my heart talk once and it led to a break –
A break in my life that made me doubt myself
My sanity non-existent, I tried to rebuild
Nobody there to help only me and my thoughts
Never alone, yet always lonely
A world with no hope is all I can see
Darkness filling every part of my body
Oh, to be alive in this horrible reality
Let me go is all I ask of you
But don’t expect any thank you from me
Way past the time where I felt at fault for those who hurt me
I now fight for myself
But darkness is winning everyday slowly
Light never truly existed following my theory –
It is a human creation to avoid insanity
Thought of you so highly
Now hell doesn’t seem low enough to hold you
Oh, to be the victim in your own story
Yet always the villain in the true story
