Category: Free Verse

I gaslight myself into not liking someone 

As I am scared, they won’t feel the same 

And as they gain interest mine fades away  

A broken heart is never what I look for  

But what a world of broken people we live for 

I let my heart talk once and it led to a break – 

A break in my life that made me doubt myself 

My sanity non-existent, I tried to rebuild 

Nobody there to help only me and my thoughts 

Never alone, yet always lonely  

A world with no hope is all I can see 

Darkness filling every part of my body 

Oh, to be alive in this horrible reality 

Let me go is all I ask of you 

But don’t expect any thank you from me  

Way past the time where I felt at fault for those who hurt me 

I now fight for myself 

But darkness is winning everyday slowly  

Light never truly existed following my theory – 

It is a human creation to avoid insanity  

Thought of you so highly  

Now hell doesn’t seem low enough to hold you 

Oh, to be the victim in your own story  

Yet always the villain in the true story  

Sunflowers are yellow
Blue bells are blue
Honey is sweet
And so are you 

The sunlight is dazzling
And so are your eyes 

Daisies are pretty
Roses are pretty
The light is illuminating
And so are your eyes 

The moon is beautiful
And so are you 

 

All my words fall silent
For the thousands of voices in my head
Dead silence  

I am longing to get up
And get back home to where I belong
With you I am bound to get out early if we hold hands heads-up  

If you tell me not to worry
Enrapted, Exalted, Exuberant I’ll be
Maybe then we could hold hands till we’re old and hoary  

In that moment I’ll know I’ve got something
And if you hold my hand
I won’t be wild or cunning  

And if you come in like a wind that’s blowing whither over
I’ll be scared and
I’ll grab your hand and we’ll hold forever  

 

It was the sound of a quiver, 

As my hand slid towards my quiver, 

And as I could no longer feel my heart nor my liver. 

They were racing towards us, like a river. 

And soon, hope slimmed down to a sliver. 

Those were beasts, foul men, here to deliver 

Death and despair upon every soul standing on the light side of the river. 

“Hold! My soldiers.” Shouted my liege. “Hit them with a rain of cuivre!” 

Yet their eyes feared not, and our entire line was ashiver. 

Lord, welcome me in your midst. I will be joining you, my forgiver. 

 

I curse you with a heart full of love 

I curse you with anguish invading you from toe and above 

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I curse you with the ability to care 

I curse you with pain and despair 

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I curse you with the desire of knowledge 

I curse you with the lack of answers at edge 

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I curse you with my saddest melody 

I curse you with my sweet remedy 

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I curse you with searching for me 

I curse you with never finding me 

 

 

You shattered my heart but I still loved you 

With all the scattered parts of me 

And now… 

I am not falling, I’ve fallen 

And I am not running, I’m walkin’ 

And no not towards you, I’m walkin’ away 

‘Cause I know you won’t ask me to stay 

I am not breaking, I’m broken 

And I am not blind, I’ve awoken 

And I know this is not what you had planned 

But you held my world in your hand 

I am not healed, I still hurt 

And you knocked me into the dirt 

And you said you’d love me until you died 

Now we’re both alone, are you satisfied? 

Sometimes things we thought could be don’t turn out how they ought to be 

Holding on to blind believing can leave you on your own and bleeding 

Sometimes leaving is the only thing that keeps you breathing 

All your empty promises left me reeling 

And now, my dear, I’m done 

The second dimension has been disappearing  

Dark, gloomy with hearts bleeding  

Satan sat on his throne laughing  

Just look at how these people are dying  

The thing that was once good is now fading  

Bloody gardens had started blooming  

The moon has lost count of his lonely days  

Where the sun was needed in so many ways  

Crossed fingers, please let it be a phase  

Save us from Satan’s blaze  

The snowing emptiness cannot be explained by a phrase  

Lord praise us with the spring and sunrays  

Lost souls sang lullabies  

Broken hearts dreamed of butterflies  

People hid their tearful eyes  

Behind fake smiles and sinful lies  

Stars were nowhere found in today’s skies  

Whistling birds were replaced by silent cries  

Evince, but only silence whispers acuity 

As your silence, often speaks louder that words  

Embrace suffering, it is hidden mercy 

One day, your love will hover withing your gates  

See, that your prayer was never unworthy 

Oh lord, when thirsty grief and in sorrow we steep 

May you assist us see, in our souls are free   

Even in torment, eternal watch shall keep.  

 

 

death was the least kind  

it never left one behind  

although love was blind  

it couldn’t stand a chance against mankind  

mourn your dead  

and tears you must shed  

hold on to life  

and to your kids and wife  

the corpse becomes dust  

and becomes one with the crust  

like flowers emerge from the earth  

there will soon be a birth  

souls become stars  

they are now freed from bars  

no misery nor worry  

and there is no need to be sorry  

the angel of death comes for everyone  

and he leaves no job undone  

heartless, merciless and cold  

he is the demon in the stories told.  

I curse you with each flinch of pain you caused  

I curse you with sleepless nights, disturbed and flawed  

I curse you with the death of a thousand humiliating moments  

I curse you with broken dreams  

I curse you with the tormenting jealousy your evil eyes ripped through me  

You are cursed and have always been,   

So, take my curses and eat them with the left-over bones I threw you for dinner