{"id":305,"date":"2023-03-16T12:03:29","date_gmt":"2023-03-16T12:03:29","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/trove.aui.ma\/?p=305"},"modified":"2023-03-16T12:03:29","modified_gmt":"2023-03-16T12:03:29","slug":"red-tears","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/trove.aui.ma\/?p=305","title":{"rendered":"Red Tears"},"content":{"rendered":"

I gaslight myself into not liking someone<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

As I am scared, they won\u2019t feel the same<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

And as they gain interest mine fades away\u202f<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

A broken heart is never what I look for\u202f<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

But what a world of broken people we live for<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

I let my heart talk once and it led to a break \u2013<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

A break in my life that made me doubt myself<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

My sanity non-existent, I tried to rebuild<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Nobody there to help only me and my thoughts<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Never alone, yet always lonely\u202f<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

A world with no hope is all I can see<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Darkness filling every part of my body<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Oh, to be alive in this horrible reality<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Let me go is all I ask of you<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

But don\u2019t expect any thank you from me\u202f<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Way past the time where I felt at fault for those who hurt me<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

I now fight for myself<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

But darkness is winning everyday slowly\u202f<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Light never truly existed following my theory –<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

It is a human creation to avoid insanity\u202f<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Thought of you so highly\u202f<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Now hell doesn\u2019t seem low enough to hold you<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Oh, to be the victim in your own story\u202f<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Yet always the villain in the true story\u202f<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I gaslight myself into not liking someone\u00a0 As I am scared, they won\u2019t feel the same\u00a0 And as they gain interest mine fades away\u202f\u00a0 A broken heart is never what I look for\u202f\u00a0 But what a world of broken people we live for\u00a0 I let my heart talk once and it led to a break … Continue reading “Red Tears”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":"","_ppma_block_editor_authors":""},"categories":[20,19],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[5],"class_list":["post-305","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-free-verse","category-poetry"],"authors":[{"term_id":5,"user_id":4,"is_guest":0,"slug":"anas-ben","display_name":"Anass Ben sliman","avatar_url":"https:\/\/secure.gravatar.com\/avatar\/7d85cc0dd30868ba705c59fa81f7c3cddc563ddc23618f2869a6c6fd353a3de1?s=96&d=mm&r=g","author_category":"","user_url":"","last_name":"Ben sliman","first_name":"Anass","job_title":"","description":""}],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/trove.aui.ma\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/305","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/trove.aui.ma\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/trove.aui.ma\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/trove.aui.ma\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/4"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/trove.aui.ma\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=305"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/trove.aui.ma\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/305\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":311,"href":"https:\/\/trove.aui.ma\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/305\/revisions\/311"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/trove.aui.ma\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=305"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/trove.aui.ma\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=305"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/trove.aui.ma\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=305"},{"taxonomy":"author","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/trove.aui.ma\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fppma_author&post=305"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}